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Child Domestic Abuse: How We Reenact What We Experience

Unresolved patterns are bound to repeat themselves even in the face of our best intentions. You can’t cheat the unconscious even if you try very hard. You might have found yourself exhibiting similar behavior as one of your parents that you have sworn to yourself, as a child, you would never do. And exactly within that promise to yourself is the culprit.

How we React as Children

Most serious Post-Traumatic Stress symptoms, regardless of adult life traumas and upsets, have their roots in childhood experiences. Most often these experiences span periods and are intimately related to the people you have grown up with: your parents, close family, siblings or friends of the family.

An adult mind is different from a child’s mind and how we process our experiences as children. As a child, we are much more dependent on our parents or caregivers for emotional and physical support. When there was abuse going on, when you were a child, acting out anger generally isn’t a safe option. It might lead to more severe punishment or emotional shut down by the parent or abuser present.

Creating Survival Strategies out of Necessity

It is at these moments, when we feel overwhelmed and can’t act out our rightful anger and disagreement that we make decisions born out of survival. These might be: to emotionally withdraw and disconnect, to make a statement to oneself of ‘I will never become like that’ or ‘the world, men or women can’t be trusted’, or a combination of all of them.

This internal decision is the splitting away from integrity, creating duality and reenactment. During that period of time, when abuse was going on, you didn’t have the capacity to stand up to the situation. You could not act successfully to reestablish your boundaries and safety hence you chose the next best thing: To survive!

What is the Pay-off and What are the Costs

You needed to either disconnect or create an opinion about the world or certain people thereby locking opposing emotions into play.

Residual emotions and reenactment later in life show up as indulgence into patterns or behaviour followed by self-loathing and withdrawing, only to be followed again by further involvement of the same pattern. And this happens on different levels. At the core of it is fear of meeting one’s own anger, based on the experiences and the emotional memory we hold onto, that keeps reenactment alive.

How Reenactment Plays itself Out

Maria grew up with her mother often shouting and belittling her. As a child, she concealed her anger towards herself about her mistreatment for fear of repercussions and instead vented it on her little sister or acted it out as self-harm.

As an adult she has children of her own and she notices how she acts out the same behaviour as her mom: shouting to her kids when she gets stressed. From an adult perspective she does not want to, but she finds herself impulsively doing it.

While working with her we find out that it is a repeating pattern that is kept in place by her child-self that hasn’t yet faced up to the fear of her mother and the anger she has repressed. As we work with that, somatically and cognitively, her symptoms and relationship with her partner and children start to change for the better as well.

To find out more how you can work with Roland, please see his author profile below. 

About Roland Bal

Roland Bal is a Master Trauma Therapist currently living in Barcelona, Spain. He has over 16 years of experience working one-to-one with clients with a focus on Trauma and PTSD and is trained in the areas of Cranio-Sacral Therapy, Visceral Manipulation, Somatic Emotional Release, Somatic Experiencing, Developmental Trauma and Coaching. Dedicated to Resolving Trauma and PTSD through online one-to-one sessions, unique insightful eBooks based on client-therapist interactions, audio guided resolve trauma meditation sessions and online courses. Providing quality valuable tools to profound process awakening.

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  1. Nice info thank you for sharing

  2. Very interesting article indeed! Thanks for sharing your insight about this topic. Very helpful thanks!

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